puede kea aq mka win ng T-shirt :D o kayay.... pahingi nalang ng T-SHIRT!!!!!!!!
xD
okay okay, diretsuhan lang to na pag share base sa exp, and what kind of love life i have now.
This is the kind of man i was before. Encountered different kind of relationship, or even what they call as "A game inside the relationship"; have fun, do fell inlove, was hurt. but never before a partner could step on my pride, and can force of what I am against. When I hate it, dont like it, or dont want it to happend; then never it will be change.
Now the girl that lives in my life now, didn't actually came as an enemmy that i had fall inlove with.., but she came exactly right straight from my eye through my heart that thats the girl I've been looking for. and even I didnt expect that I can make her mine, I was contented before of seing her happy, smile, laughs, etc....
Time came that she and her friend, came to visit me in my house and ask some help 'bout computers.., and after that we have some drinks, then it came to happend that I frankly share or told her that "you know, you look decent I feel like sorry for you and honestly if I am your boyfriend I will not let you drink." then she just smile and replied "yah, some had told me just like that, that this lifestyle don't fit or look good in me". our conversation was not like formal, we're just laughing and have some fun. But what I told her actualy was deep down from my heart - concern. I feel like being hurt watching or knowing some of her deeds but ofcoarse I didnt tell her bout that being hurt. I HATE drunkard women, thats what I remember.
Oh, I forgot to tell.., I met her a week before they came to visit me. It was on a day when all graduate candidates was asked to fill forms in the office. She sat beside me,I was having fan with her chat&jokes while filling up forms. She stand up and go to the registrar and she left one form on the desk, contains details about her (biodata - like) AND her cel. number. my friend saw it, and said to me to phonebook it but I cant. Then my friend did, and i found out a minute past that my friend is texting her or should I say they were texting; "this isnt fair", said to my myself. So I also save her number. Remembered, that I HATE getting numbers from me or from the others without asking permission!
Back to the day when they were in my house. Lots of chats lots of shots happend, and all got down, her friend falls first and I put her in my guest room bed, and back having chat and shot with that dream girl of mine "haha".. meanwhile, I don't know if it was because of the alcohol why our conversation became serious, we have shared lots about ourselves "we're getting to know each other LoL!" then I sensed that I have a chance of having her, so I was right. and there love came thru...
Its not the end, it only says we made/started our relationship. I cut my horns on my head, and she must also will... easy to hear ah? easy to agree. but things aren't that easy 'cause when there are events that she'll enjoy and she lack of thinking, its hard for her to think before doing.. I know its good to hear that shes happy but ofcourse in a true happiness, and also atleast that it wont affect the relationship.. oh, its hard to explain, and I dont want to tell everything; lets say it short. She often got wrong, after we argue told everything - making her understand, its not 100% for tommorow that she wont be wrong again hahaha I hate it! grr! so much different of what I was before. its good to say sorry and must forgive, but I HATE it when I hear that SORRY a couple times different mistakes! o.O... :( but I know she loves me too... i HATE it.. but its true, i love her more..., i HATE it.., but it was her.., I HATE THIS, but I want her... oh no.. I want what I HATE!
Well, it will be too much words if I share all the wrongs, But I'm happy because I know to change is not that easy.. it takes time..., and there is improvement.. ;)
anyway, well she too there are lots of things in me that she hate... but I tried, and do, what she dont like and what she dont want me to do I control myself not to do.. but you know, i HATE changing/stopping things I used to do. i hate it. :( 'cause, what i used to do has no wrong actually grRrRrr!
I don't know if i have shared my story clear, or if guys could understand it hehehe
but, you know i HATE to share this. but I want that T-shiRt!!!! hahahaha
